Loraine’s “everywhere i go” Is About What We Carry After Loss
Punk Head: Between writing everywhere i go and releasing it, the song became tied to entirely new losses. How did that change the way you sang it in the studio, and did you ever feel like you were recording two different versions of yourself at once?
loraine: Two weeks before I went into the studio, I attended a celebration of life for a friend who had passed away. I seriously considered cancelling the session because I didn’t know if I could sing the song anymore. I kept wondering if I was a fraud for singing a song that sounded like it came from the other side of grief when I was still very much in the middle of it.
The celebration of life and the message of the song reminded me that healing doesn’t mean being finished grieving. I realized I didn’t have to be over the loss in order to sing about carrying someone with me. So when I recorded ‘everywhere i go’, I was probably singing as two different versions of myself at once. I was the person who wrote the song hoping for peace, and the person who had just experienced another fresh loss. Instead of focusing on what had been taken from me, I tried to focus on what I had the privilege of experiencing with those friends while they were here.
Punk Head: You talk about grief as something that teaches rather than simply hurts. Was there a particular moment when that realization shifted from an idea into something you genuinely believed?
loraine: Last year, in 2025, it felt like I experienced one loss after another. I was ghosted by someone I'd been seeing for a year, I was in a car accident, I lost two friends back to back, someone tried to break into my apartment, and someone close to me was diagnosed with cancer. It just felt like blow after blow.
I remember reaching a point where I thought, ‘this is either going to swallow me whole, or it's going to teach me something’. And I realized I'd rather be taught than consumed. I think when I made that switch I stopped asking, “How do I get past this?” and started asking, “What is this trying to show me?”. That changed the way I processed grief. I stopped seeing it as something to outrun and something to sit with. That realization made its way into ‘everywhere i go.’ The song isn’t about the pain going away or having all the answers, but learning that love doesn’t disappear when someone does, and neither do the ways they’ve shaped you.
Punk Head: One of the most striking things about this release is that it doesn't ask listeners to dwell in sadness. Instead, it invites them to carry people forward. What conversations, experiences, or memories helped you arrive at that perspective?
loraine: Therapy. LMAO.
But I also have to give a lot of credit to my parents. They never treated grief like something you were supposed to get over. They were always open and honest about death, and because I experienced loss at a young age, they taught me something that has stayed with me ever since, the only way someone truly dies is if you stop carrying them with you.
We still celebrate birthdays, we still mention our loved ones during holidays, and we'll find ourselves saying things like, "They would've loved this," or, "Do you remember when they did..." They remain part of our current memories, not just our past ones.
I also spent the last 2-3 years volunteering with hospice, which deepened that perspective even more. Being with people and families at the end of life taught me that grief isn't just about loss, it's also a reflection of love. I saw firsthand how remembering someone, telling their stories, and speaking their name can become an act of care long after they're gone.
Therapy gave me the language for a lot of what I was feeling, but my family gave me practice, and hospice showed me just how universal that experience is. All of those things shaped ‘everywhere i go’. The song isn't asking people to stay in their grief, but it's inviting them to keep carrying the people they love forward.
Punk Head: Nature plays a surprisingly important role in this record. Beyond honoring your friends, what does recording outdoors allow you to express that a traditional studio cannot?
loraine: Recording outdoors made me feel connected to something much bigger than myself. When you're surrounded by the wind, the trees, the birds, and all of the sounds of nature, you're reminded that you're part of something that's constantly changing, growing, and continuing. For me, that was incredibly grounding. It connected me to my own humanity and to the reality that death isn't separate from life, it's part of it.
Punk Head: The production blends acoustic intimacy with subtle synthetic textures. How did you and Jared decide where the line was between creating atmosphere and preserving the rawness of the performance?
loraine: By the time I brought the song to Jared, it was already pretty fully formed from my writing session with Manny. That actually made the production process feel less like searching for the song and more like finding the right frame for it. Jared added acoustic guitar, and we layered in cicada sounds that I'd recorded to give it a sense of place and texture. We were really intentional about not overproducing it. Every addition had to serve the emotion of the song rather than distract from it.
A lot of our inspiration, like most of my music, came from Bruce Springsteen and '80s records that blend organic instruments with synthesizers. I've always loved the way those albums can feel both expansive and deeply human at the same time. Where you'll hear real drums, acoustic or electric guitar, alongside warm synths. That balance was exactly what we were chasing. We wanted the production to create an atmosphere that felt open and nostalgic while still preserving the intimacy of the vocal and the honesty of the story.
